Momentary Mistake of Samity-Chapter 2- if loving you is wrong I don't wanna be right -August 2000

if loving you is wrong I don't wanna be right 25/7-8/8/2000

You have changed the entire concept I have about life
made me forget all about my problems
and think, other than you, there’s nothing better
you are so sweet please guide me to your hive
I need you to shower all your honey over me
make me wanna spend every moment I have
with someone as beautiful as you
you make me feel like I should be the one who loves you forever
if there is time and disposition allowed from your side
I take my chances on you again and again
but the love I’m sending is not making it trough
I can’t read what for me you are feeling inside
your emotions you know so well how to hide
you know I respect your freedom and I never wanna tie you down
I never wanna force you but leave you free to decide
I just need some of your love
to guide me trough my days and nights
I only want to share everything with you ’cos I feel crazy for you
Lady you are my addiction, my fascination, my drug
so I can’t leave it all to luck
this fever I have for you is burning me up inside
no I can’t put my mind at rest, until I reach my destination
you put me once again on the floor, begging for more
I just pray the Lord that you feel something for me too
if you only let this flame burn into a love fire
that never stops us burn with flames of desire
you are so close, yet you are so far away
‘n I don’t care about anything else right now
all I care about is you, you are the dream that I have to make true
if you only knew how I long to touch your lips
wrap you in my loving arms and kiss you goodnight
Lady if loving you is wrong I don’t wanna be right
I swear it again, if loving you is bad, I wanna be a criminal
Lady all I wanna do is make love to your soul
massage the amazing beauty that in you lies deep
encourage the release of fantasies you no longer need to keep
become lost and absorbed in the thrill that we both can discover
as we take each other higher, more higher were there ‘ve been no other
I knock on the door and try to turn the key,
if you only open up your heart to me
turn off the light and light up all candles
in the fine light, you are more than shining
you hardly know me,so why
you don't give a chance to start out finding?
change the music put on some soul; leave me to see your body glow
let’s leave each other breathless,make each other feel shivers down our spine
we know the way how we can blow each others mind
until we can’t resist each other no more ‘n we lack strength to carry on
Lady all I wanna do is make love to your heart
reach your inner affection warmth and tenderness
just let me hold you, because you ache for caress
then I watch as more incomparable
and more stunning your love might grow
every time I hold your body,tightly pressed against my own
let your flesh melts in mine;
let’s enjoy each other’s wine
till all our love is overflowing
Lady, all I wanna do is make love to your mind
take you to all the destinations you crave to go
I want to calm all the fears that haunt you so
stimulate your thoughts and ideas you have inside
pull from you the things you no longer need to hide
I only want to make you feel what true love means
the physical is merely the path to your mind, soul and heart
warm your heart is simply where I need to start
at each tingle, blush, heart beat, heated rush I want to send
guide me and draw me to where your desires will never end
and there are so many thrills, chills and delights
if you could only be me lover as well as my best friend
we belong together nothing could be more fine
even ‘tough you put me in a position were I can’t control my trembling feet
you make me so angry, especially when you tease
help me understand, with you in which position I stand
sometimes you shine other times you just break me down
you never make it clear if I should stay or just disappear
I never manage to look straight in your eyes
‘cos when you look at me,lately,your eyes disprove my soul,’n I just feel weak
but when you smile at me I feel strong enough to conquer the world
all I taste is your pride and all I breathe is your atrocity
why do you have to act so arduous on my side?
I don’t think this is the way friends behave
you ‘re the closest to heaven that I can ever be
if you could only let me be
all I have to do is just plead out, so if I’m living I can see
I really feel abused, got flesh and bones but for you I’m the toy
I feel so brittle and fragile, like potter ware in your hand
only you have the power to make dull days bright with sunny rays
you have now become the mistress of my heart'
it is only your side that have to decide
stop letting me down, I hang on to you and when it’s good for you
if you could please blind me with your light
I lay down but I keep you in sight
this feeling I have I just can’t continue to fight
just thinking how beautiful it can be for the two of us
what are you waiting for? Together we stand divided we fall
You know how much I wish you allowed me to care
but I turn my head look for you but you’re not there
I feel hopeless but too tired to go to bed
It might be I’m crazy; maybe that’s why I can’t close my eyes
and when I manage to close them you come up again
on my mind every second of the day and night
I keep thinking about you ‘n it’s a show I don’t wanna miss
so I have to book another spectacle for the morning when I rise
I search again for the time on a clock with no hands
you spare a few words but there’s still darkness on the edge
I want to see you closer, can you please come closer than this
please don’t leave me visioning only dreams in the mist
if only I could turn back the hands of time
I would definitely swallow every word I said
these dream I’m having are frightening me, make me feel too sad
make me feel like living, without being alive ,without you
and I never believed that someone so beautiful, could ever hurt so bad

A Momentary Mistake of Sanity-Chapter 2- Shall we pray for time? July 2000

Shall we pray for time? 20-25/7/2000


If I could only reach your feelings
half as much as you reached mine
I have to conquer your love and mind
I’ve got to make you love me; I’ve got hooked on your line
this is the only achievement to what I must aim
I’ve got to fulfill it or else I ‘ll go insane
I just want to discover the method to make you see
that the love I have for you is more than real
you can find all the answers, if you just let me be
As far as my eyes can stretch to bear
only your shadow is surrounding me
I have nowhere to hide the land is bare
still I try again ‘n again, maybe I don’t loose
how come you share my deepest thoughts?
why do you follow me wherever I go?
I lead you to the water, but you are too blind to choose
In the new world that you discovered
it is simple to play tricks on anyone
it might look easy it might look fun
I know from experience, it can be deceptive
it can be misleading so you better be cautious
since anyone can be, whatever they pretend to be
I don’t want you to get hurt, that‘s my job
on the highway your imagination won’t stop
so you better slow down your voice ‘n hand
too many castle are build in the sand
and even tough you are going to get involved
he made you do it his way and you comply with
will he drive you to talk to the wind
or to hide the tears makes you catch the rain
if he ever come to meet you after such a long spree
even if to reach him 1000 seas you have to fly
still perfect strangers,you have to remain
he will still be the anthem of your pain
will you ever recognize him in his disguise?
will you ever figure out the lies?
who will calm the storms in your eyes?
will a couple of days be enough?
and after all the fuss you ‘re making
can you bear the agony of love?
will he ever remember your name?
will you ever have the strength to tell?
when his empty heart echoes in your wishing well
And then whom would you blame?
you ‘ll say all man are the same?
you know that I’m not that type of guy
when it comes to feelings
I never hide behind a different name
who is so stupid or knows so well how to play games
to put his job
ahead of a lady which should be elevated on top
what happened in the last 2 years he’s trying so hard to hide
why he doesn’t want you to meet him at his place
he is the expert of illusions, the fantasy man
with magic touch in voice and hand
there’s no difference if you don’t know what you’ve got
‘n what’s gone
you are the queen of dreams with heart of stone
and you are so blind to see what you are gonna loose
it’s a wheel of fortune; it’s a big ship of dreams
but go ahead you ‘ve got to taste it
they say we only learn from mistakes
but remember one day you’ve got to face it
who’s gonna look for the light
when you loose it from your sight
who’s gonna be waiting there for you?
who’s gonna pick you up from the ground?
when it all crashes down
who’s gonna wipe the tears you ‘re gonna cry?
who’s will ever understand and worship you as good as I?
who you ‘re gonna fantasies about, when you ‘re alone in your bed?
to who you ‘re gonna reach out when you need someone to hold
I bet you know beige plastic is pretty cold
in your puzzlement, you can’t figure out,
that in the far corner here I lie
you know you made my hands tights
maybe it will be to late when you discover that I’m your pot of gold
A lot of things in our world go click
but only you know how to click me into place
how can we remain just friends? I release a friend
but you, I wanna be in you, be a part of you
but I look in your direction and you never pay any attention
keep on shooting me I’m your favourite target
you can search the whole land
but you ‘ll never find anything like me
if you want to taste what true love means, you have to come to me
I’m sorry I act so hard but can I be more sincere
and this is what I feel right now
I feel that you are too special
and ready to wait for you a lifetime
it is not only a matter of jealousy but also because I care
I expect you know that this not my style
I had to do something
I don’t want anybody to mislead you with a lie
you put yourself trough a lot of hard times lately
but who am I to judge you in what you say or do?
I never intend to hurt you’cos I feel like you just the same
probably one day we will both say that being in love is a game
you want someone who can never exist
and I need someone who gives love a bad name.
you make people think that being in love is a shame
but mark my words
you are the one who’s gonna miss
end up disappointed
no one will ever shower you with love better than this

A Momentary Mistake of Sanity - Chapter 1- You are someone I want created out of someone I need July 2000

You are someone I want created out of someone I need (15-21/7/2000)

I see you hiding, behind the candle flame
your eyes gleaming that certain mystery
I see you laugh and you make me see
that ‘tough it’s an uphill struggle ,life is worth living
but only if I see you standing behind me.
I recall I saw you when I was singing
I didn’t recognize you at first
but the light from your eyes ,’tough broken
made me see that it had to be you
and once again my heart got stolen

if only I could see inside your heart, inside your mind
if I could read your emotions ,so I won’t make mistakes
‘cos to see you sad ,it’s the only thing I can’t stand
let me know ,if there is anything that I need to mend
I need you ,like I never needed anyone before
when you say there ‘s hope ,I start seeing the shore
tell me if I should start reading the next chapter
or just stare at the picture wall
even tough tomorrow, appear so far away
I’m more than willing to wait forever
but you always leave me with something left to say

I love your quality of being female
you ‘re the wings that fly my heart
I love your strength, your power
you ‘re the tone in my weary voice
I love the way you make feel like a rat in a maze
you ‘re the dream that will never die
I love your intense emotion
you ‘re the feel flowing in my touch
These feelings caught me by surprise
and I don’t want to make it too difficult for you to realize
sorry I’m acting unjust again ,and for you that’s not fair
you need a break ,hopefully time will tell
and the love I wanna give you ,is very rare
how can that be that you make me see all my life?
with just one look ,I just feel hypnotized

I love the way you delve into me,
you ‘re my shelter in the rain
I love your charm ,your efficiency
you are the passion in my veins
I love your passion ,your sensuality
you ‘re the spark that lights my smile
I love the way you are so complicated
you ‘re the wisdom in my mind

what I have discovered is that just need someone like you
if you only knew ,what you really mean to me
if you only knew how much rewarding it is to love
you say that loving you is a dirty job
but you are too unique and you make me feel so good
so it’s a road ,I ‘m more than ready to go trough
just look at it this way ,to me you are more then special
so please would you please stop expressing regret on yourself

A Momentary Mistake of Sanity - Chapter 1- La perfection fait la femme July 2000

La perfection fait la femme (15-21/7/2000)

I had to come and meet you
I had to see you once again
I look forward to this chance upon
‘cos only you make me find
in my crazy way of life
inner peace of mind

I had to phone you
I had to hear your tender voice
I definetely sound foolish
I’m afraid I can’t find the words to use
I choke and fear grips me
And as usual I fall for a stupid excuse

Everything could happen
Even if the world will collapse
I won’t realize
I will be too busy looking in your eyes
Since I see myself in you
I wanna know what makes you happy
But I don’t want to move too fast
I don’t wanna rush you
‘cos I don’t think it ‘s fair on your side

I’m trapped under your spell
What’s happening to me I just can’t tell
I just wanna wrap you in my arms
To make you feel secure
To make you feel that there ‘s someone
Who really cares for you
And be ther beside you
For every step you decide to do

You do something wonderful to me
Something deep inside
I can’t control the emotion
Growing stronger each day that pass
Whenever you are beside
Don’t be afraid to reflect
The charm and delight
You shower over so bright
To everyone who gets in contact with you
Nobody ever made me feel the way I feel
‘cos you are someone I want made of someone I need

I kneel down in front of you in attitude of adoration as I raise you to the rank of divinity ,the place where you belong’
Lady I believe and no one can change my mind ,that you are perfection made female

A Momentary Mistake of Sanity - Chapter 1- No one makes it right, July 2000

No one makes it right (like you do)-(6-10/7/2000)


In the quiet silent hours, when He turns off the light
I come down to meet you
In the dark figure of the night
Over shadowed by the light of a quarter moon
And when you look out of the room
Not even the sun can rival your attractiveness
The deep light you shimmer is so unique
Your beauty just drives me crazy, you blow my mind
And to hide all this, all I can do, is start singing songs out of tune

I would do anything ,a man can do
You are my strength ,my weakness
I want to give it all to you
I would climb any mountain ,how can I make you see?
Even if the stars should fall ,there will always be you and me

Just take my hand we ‘ll make a stand
I know that we can make it
it’s you and me ,I want the whole world to see
That in my toughest there is only you
‘cos no one makes it right like you do

the light in your eyes is all the hope I need
there ‘s so much you can give
believe me ,your smile is my reason to live
there ‘s so much we can share
I will never let go
I want to be with you everywhere
I’m here for you heart and soul
You know what I want to be?
The water when you get thirsty
And the air when you need to breathe

I know I’m a dreamer
It ’s easy to see I want to be a believer
With you close I can fly right trough the air
Now I’m wide-awake
I just want you to take me there
Take a look around you and tell me what you can see
I guess it depends exactly on what you want it to be

Because there are women and women and some hold you tight
While some leave you counting the stars in the night

A Momentary Mistake of Sanity - Chapter 1- Red Obsession, June/ July 2000

Red Obsession –(28/6-2/7/2000)

It is unusual how you can say
so much without saying a word
just a sparkle of the eye ,you electrify
spinning my soul around on wire
twisting my heart like I’m on fire

Every night I lay in my bed
holding you close in my dreams
I feel breathless and out of salvation
I feel like melting in the sea of your creation
one look at you ,but that’s no place you
deserve to be
you should be on the cover of a magazine
And when I witness your laugh
that when life appear to have begun
I’m floating light like air
and you shine on just like the sun
I’m killing the time ,just watching people pass by
but in every crowds face all I see is you
I feel small all I can do stare at the wall
hoping that you might be thinking of me too

I try to call but I don’t know what I should tell you
I hope this isn’t just chalk dissolving in the rain
I know that this is something beautiful
from which both of us can gain…
can’t we abandon the world outside for a while?
and spend some time you and I
under this bright magnificent sky
as I struggle for something to say
I know what must come out from inside my heart
the problem’s I can’t find the right words
to make you see what’s the best way

Lady I believe in you just like christianity
please help strenghten this love divine
and never stop radiating your charming temptation
you are the finest red red wine
I’m counting days to when I find the courage
to tell you all that you should know
and hold you in these arms of mine.

A Momentary Mistake of Sanity - Chapter 1- Magnet & Steel, June 2000

Magnet & Steel –(18-21/6/2000)


Every shape of every word you say
breaks the boredom of an ordinary day
every look that seems to mystify
every single smile that spins me to the sky
just makes me wanna get close to you
and get inside your heart…

I’m gazing at the sky
the stars are out tonight ,shining bright
I’m waving to the clouds ,bye ,byes
while I drown in the smile of your eyes
suddenly I feel there’s a time for a deal
and a voice tells me that it can be for real

Every breath .every vision you make
every chance in love I’m afraid to take
every move that seems to alter my world
every dream that I have about you Lady
just makes me wanna get close to you
and get inside your mind…

I’m breathing the warm night air
I can ambience the four winds blow
I’m weary but I’m always prepared
no storm ever knocked me they just dissapeared
‘cos Lady when you get close to me
I just feel a certain chemistry

I can hear a thundering sound
beating inside when you ‘re around
I’m sorry if I can’t find the romantic line
but see me once and see the way I feel
I feel that you ‘re the magnet
and I feel like I’m made of steel;
I can be forever yours
until you decide to set me free
in your eyes ,I can see doors of heaven
‘cos they are the sweetest thing I’ve ever seen.

A Momentary Mistake of Sanity

Acuiring back time I amaze myself everytime, especially now that I can understand what an absurd mind can manage to write Righteous enlivening made me discover a brand new me I never knew. So here is my contemplation, I want to share it with you... Hoping that it might offer support

Who am I?

I`m just a simple soul
a unique soul
swimming in a fish bowl
With lots of dreams one day I achieve
I'm no leader I'm no follower
I don`t wanna be any of the above
I'm just a rebel who hates hurt
I just wanna change the world we live in
and make it a better place
for you and me
where we can still live together
but still be free
to be what we really wanna be